Bills, cows, and ice cream cones

“What the…”

That was all I heard my husband say this afternoon as he walked in the door from the mailbox, a torn envelope in his hand.

He spread its contents on the counter. It was a bill for a medical visit I had a month ago, one that we thought our insurance had paid for.

The bill was for almost $600.

I lost my job several weeks ago. And we are just barely able to pay our regular bills right now. Not to mention I have $80K in school loans and we have six kids to feed. My husband’s car just got out of the shop. Mine is sounding like it will be next. Oh, and Uncle Sam has decided we owe him several hundred dollars by mid April.

This was not a pleasant surprise. We looked at each other in shock.

I’m sure you’ve had those moments before. Moments where your next thought is panic. Fear jumps up and puts its filthy hands around your throat. You try to breathe and think normally, but it seems impossible.

As humans, we tend to panic because we think small. We see the situation and from our limited view and all we see is hopelessness.

But God has a different viewpoint. Not only does he know the future, but he controls all the money in the world. In Psalms 50:10 God says, “The cattle on a thousand hills are mine.” He created and owns everything on this earth. Cows. Money. It’s all just stuff to him.

You know what that means?

You have the exact amount of money you are supposed to have right now.

If you needed more–if it was what was best for you right now–you would have it. He gives us exactly what we need when we need it.

Yes, I’m preachin’ to myself here.

After we gawked at the bill my husband didn’t say much. He left to go pick up his daughter, and I prayed he wouldn’t give in to the same panic that was trying to cloud my brain.

I got out my Bible and came across a verse:

““I am the LORD your God, Who brought you up from the land of Egypt. Open your mouth wide and I will fill it.”

‭‭PSALM‬ ‭81:10‬ ‭AMP‬‬

Not only is God reminding his listeners that he brought his people out of captivity in Egypt, he’s going way beyond that. Did you notice that?

He didn’t just say, “I brought you out of Egypt and I’ll provide food for you.” Or “Don’t worry, we’ll make it somehow.”

He says, “Open wide your mouth and I will fill it.”

Thats no meager statement. That’s a huge promise. That’s like as a kid when your dad took you for ice cream; instead of getting the smallest scoop there, he let you get a triple scoop of whatever you want. With sprinkles! (My earthy father never did this, but my Heavenly Father longs to give me even more than I need!)

God gives good gifts. And he is happy to provide for our needs. We just have to trust his timing.

Sometimes I think he likes to wait till the last minute to come through. It’s like he’s just showing off.

I can’t wait to see how he’ll provide the money for this bill. I’m trusting it will be just in time.